Makoto x OneSided!Reader : I never thought...

    "Bye, Onii-chan. I'll be waiting for you at home. Make sure to come home before dinner okay?" Haru hummed in response before you turned your heel and walked away, Makoto trailing close behind you. The walk home was silent, Makoto would open up a conversation from time to time but you'll simply answer him bluntly, thus ending every openings he makes for a conversation.

    "You know...if you need someone to tell what's on your mind, I'm here for you." You have reached the door to your house when Makoto finally opted to speak, his olive eyes shimmering brightly. You smiled at him before nodding.

    "I'll see you tomorrow then, Makoto." The door slid open and you took one last glance at him before closing the door. As soon as the door closed with a soft click your knees bucked and you fell to the ground, slowly you brought your knees close to your chest.

    "If it was that easy I would've told you long ago...but then again...there's a reason why I couldn't tell you..." You mumbled under your breath as you leaned your back against the wall.

    "Nice Form, Rei! Keep that going! Oi, Haruka! It's not your turn yet! Jeez!" You could hear Sasabe groan in annoyance from where you stood. A smile on your lips as you heard your brother get scolded.

    "Where's Makoto-senpai when you need him? Hey, _____, you sure you haven't seen him around?" You turned your head to Gou and simply shook your head and returned your gaze to the crystalline water ahead.

    "S-Sorry I'm late!" Your ears perked up at the sound of the familiar voice.

    "Makoto-senpai late...That certainly is something that happens once in a lifetime..." Gou muttered as she spotted the green haired teen walking to the pool. What caused curiosity to shine in her pure ruby eyes, was the girl that clung to his left arm. 

    "Hey, Mako-chan! Who's that?" Nagisa climbed out of the pool and asked the teen.

    "Oh, could you guys come here for a second? I really want to introduce you to her, of course Haru and ____ already know about her." He placed a hand sheepishly behind his head and chuckled.

    "M-Makoto! It's embarrassing!" The girl's voice called out to Makoto and hid behind him, conscious of the stares that the swim club were giving her.

    "Neh, ____, want to come?" Gou had her hand extended for you to take but you simply shook your head and told her that you'd rather stay under the shade. Gou just shrugged before turning her back and joined the now growing crowd. You had your head hung low, your teeth biting your lower lip. As the swim club bombarded Makoto with questions, Haruka climbed out of the pool and went to the locker room to change, he knew...and only HE knew how you felt at the moment.

    "Alright, calm down for a moment guys! This is Izanami Kazuto, and...she's well...my girlfriend." Nagisa and Gou's squeals could be heard as Makoto finished introducing the girl. You unconsciously gripped the hems of your skirt tighter as you heard Makoto's happy laughter, pain clutching your heart as thoughts ran through your head.

    I thought I'd be able to handle it...To see you smiling...your eyes shining brightly as the one you love stands beside you. I feel silly now, I thought I've already locked these emotions up in my chest, behind a wall that nobody could climb...but why? why does my resolve waver whenever I imagine myself standing there beside you and not her? Am I really that selfish? All along I've been living in my own fantasy...I gave myself hope and now that hope remains shattered. Hope, I'd rather believe that those are fragments of shattered dreams that drift farther away from reach...the more you try to grab them...the more distant it becomes...And so are you... As you were engulfed in your own thoughts you didn't notice Gou's constant calling of your name.

    "____, ____! ______!" You finally snapped back into reality and your _e/c_ orbs met with the worried stares of the swim club. You blinked once...twice...before gathering up the courage to speak.

    "S-Sorry I...I was just thinking of what I'm going to cook for dinner today, Haru-nii made us eat mackerel this whole week." As you spoke you forced down the tears that had threatened to fall, you laughed nervously and placed a hand behind your head.

    "Is that so? That really sounds like something that Haru would do!" Makoto laughed along with Gou and Sasabe. The constant nagging of your heart telling you to run was completely ignored as Nagisa ran up to you, his pink orbs shined with various emotions in them. Pain? Worry? Concern? 

    Pity...most definitely Pity...After all...I was a stupid girl running after someone else's prince charming... You smiled at the blonde weakly before leaning on the wall.

    "I-I'm fine, Nagisa." You spoke in a mere whisper, afraid that if you spoke any louder the tears would fall. The tears that were made up of broken dreams never to be put together again.

    Was there really a future of you and I? Would there have been a world where I could have lived my happy ending? Walking hand in hand, whispering eternal promises to each other...Being the Prince I've always wanted...Did the world truly delight in seeing me in pain? 

    "Makoto, we're leaving. See you tomorrow." You broke away from your trance as your brother pulled you along with him leading you away from the group before Gou pulled at your free hand.

    "Wait! We've each given them our blessings! It's only right if Haruka-senpai and _____ give them theirs!" Gou pulled on your arm, forcing you to face the olive eyes you never wanted to see anymore.

    "Gou, let _____ go. Now." Haruka threatened, yet the red head continued on urging you to speak. You took in a shaky breath which didn't go unnoticed by the tall teen.

    "_____?" His voice was coated with concern, what a fool you were to fall for his sweet voice.

    "R-Remember when we were little? You, me and Haru-nii used to play 'Princess and the Dragon' right? You used to cry a lot when you couldn't beat Haru-nii, the dragon, but there was one time that you did beat him. You were jumping up and down the whole day...those small things make you smile...and who would've thought that our little crybaby would get to find a girlfriend before Haru-nii? I just want to say..." You took another breath before looking up into his eyes, mustering up the best smile you could at the moment for him to see.

    "I just want to say...Never stop smiling...with Izanami-chan with you I'm sure that the world will be more colorful for you and everyone around you...Congratulations...Tachibana-san..." The whole swim club inwardly gasped, even your brother stood glued to his spot as the name rolled off your tongue.

    'Tachibana-san'

    "_-____? Is something wrong?" Makoto looked at you with eyes full of conflicted emotions. Happiness, surprise, sadness... You turned to Izanami and spoke once more, swallowing back the tears once more.

    If I truly did love him...then I suppose I should let you go right? I wanted so badly to lie down next to you on the couch, arms wrapped around each other and soon fall into eternal bliss, just lying there next to each other...hearts beating as one...

    "_____-chan..." Nagisa watched you with sad eyes, his eyes following your form as you disappeared into the horizon.

    As you and Haru walked home and was a good distance away from the pool, Haru finally decided to speak.

    "You could cry now you know...I'm your brother...I'm here for you, ______." He turned around to face you and opened his arms, welcoming you into his embrace.

    "Onii-chan..." Slowly you felt your tears fall and you ran into your brother's arms, soaking his shirt with fresh tears running down your cheeks. A comforting hand was placed on your head, slowly patting it as he let you release the accumulated pain that clutched at your heart, gnawing away at your very existence.

    "I never thought seeing him happy would be so painful..."